Yesterday I went to the funeral. I'm not using any names cause they asked me not to if I blogged about it.
The service was actually amazing, even thought I couldn't keep up with all the religious aspects of it but hey, I'll blame my mum for that one. There were a lot more people there than any other funeral I've been to. People from her place of work, her kids football/cricket/basketball teams, school friends EVERYONE. People had to stand because they filled out the massive church.
I think that watching her kids eulogies was the hardest part of not only the funeral but possibly the last decade of my life. They were all so sad and mad and I couldn't help it I just cried and cried and cried and then cried some more the entire way though them. The youngest went first which is my sisters significant other. He mostly reminisced about all the things his mum used to go for him. He told a story about how he was trying to make a photo frame with an imagine of the two of them in it in prep and he just couldn't do it. After he tried and tried he got upset and the school had to call his mum to come up and calm him down. She was there in about 5 minutes. He laughed about how he would text her to ask what was for dinner and she would text back "food". Or when he would be going up to maccas and ask if she wanted anything and she would just say "no thanks, i'll just have some of yours.". Second youngest went next, he didn't cope so well. He brought in a magnet with his mums name on it. The kind that have where the name originated, and its meaning. He relayed to everyone who had attended how that applied to his mum and tried to use examples to prove it but he didn't cope so well and broke down a bit. Well, a lot really. The only daughter went next. Her eulogy kind of took everyone by surprise. She read out a letter she had written to her mum the day after she died. It started off saying how mad she was at her and ended with her saying she would try to remember the good things about her but that right now, it was a bit difficult. The last eulogy, delivered by her eldest son was all too much for me and I can't actually remember what was said now.
The whole day just sucked. If I could have taken away what they were feeling even if it meant I had to feel it myself I would have. They didn't deserve this. None of it. They are such good kids, the best I've ever met.
R.I.P
Friday, March 25, 2011
Monday, March 21, 2011
Rest In Peace
So yesterday my sisters boyfriends mother committed suicide. In the backyard, in the middle of the day. With people home.
Her 18 year old son walked out into the yard and found her hanging from a tree.
I don't know whether to be mad, or just sad. So I'm a bit of both and I swap between the two every hour. It's like a roller coaster, my own personal amusement park.
I'm usually pretty good at finding the good amongst all the bad and trying to remain positive but I can't find any at the moment. It just doesn't exist.
Help.
Her 18 year old son walked out into the yard and found her hanging from a tree.
I don't know whether to be mad, or just sad. So I'm a bit of both and I swap between the two every hour. It's like a roller coaster, my own personal amusement park.
I'm usually pretty good at finding the good amongst all the bad and trying to remain positive but I can't find any at the moment. It just doesn't exist.
Help.
Saturday, March 12, 2011
Keeping busy.
I've been trying to keep busy which is all fine and dandy up until now.
I don't want to spend too much time alone because otherwise I get cranky and sad about significant other and I being on "pause" while he sorts his shit out. I'm not a bad girlfriend not wanting to help, his issues just hit too close to home for me to actually be of any help.
Friday night I had a yummy birthday dinner which was kind of awkward because I forgot her Christmas present (probably because Christmas was soo long ago now that I don't really think about it anymore). So, basically it was her birthday dinner but I got a present. Loverly T2 tea set which is going to apparently help me sleep which is fantastic because I am not used to sleeping by myself :(
Today I went to the travel agent to book my ticket to Thailand, except that the travel agent was closed when we got there. D'uh. Now we have to go back next Saturday because out of all 5 days during the week there is actually not at time all three of us are available to go. So instead we went to Gloria Jeans and got icy cold drinks to have in the sun. It was actually really nice outside, maybe even a touch too hot. Then I came home with all this excitement because I was going to re visit my childhood and go to Luna Park but alas, my stomach started feeling queasy and then I was sick :(
There goes my Tim Tam chiller.
No fun for me tonight it looks like. So now I shall sit here and try to keep my glass half full instead of empty.
Currently waiting for my cup cakes to cool down so I can ice them :)
I don't want to spend too much time alone because otherwise I get cranky and sad about significant other and I being on "pause" while he sorts his shit out. I'm not a bad girlfriend not wanting to help, his issues just hit too close to home for me to actually be of any help.
Friday night I had a yummy birthday dinner which was kind of awkward because I forgot her Christmas present (probably because Christmas was soo long ago now that I don't really think about it anymore). So, basically it was her birthday dinner but I got a present. Loverly T2 tea set which is going to apparently help me sleep which is fantastic because I am not used to sleeping by myself :(
Today I went to the travel agent to book my ticket to Thailand, except that the travel agent was closed when we got there. D'uh. Now we have to go back next Saturday because out of all 5 days during the week there is actually not at time all three of us are available to go. So instead we went to Gloria Jeans and got icy cold drinks to have in the sun. It was actually really nice outside, maybe even a touch too hot. Then I came home with all this excitement because I was going to re visit my childhood and go to Luna Park but alas, my stomach started feeling queasy and then I was sick :(
There goes my Tim Tam chiller.
No fun for me tonight it looks like. So now I shall sit here and try to keep my glass half full instead of empty.
Currently waiting for my cup cakes to cool down so I can ice them :)
Thursday, March 10, 2011
(ALMOST) FREE!
TRIP TO THAILAND!
My friend and I decided we would go to Thailand for our 21st given that they are about 2 months apart and neither of us wanted a party where, essentially we paid for other people to get crunk. So- we decided Thailand. Cheap enough for friends to come if they wanted and for us to afford also as we're headed to Europe in June.
Said friend invited a girl who turns around and says "My boyfriend and I booked a trip to Thailand in October but we've broken up and I'm going to give his ticket away- would you like to come?"
Um, fuck yes we would.
Said couple has already paid for the accommodation and two return tickets and despite us being pushy wanted to contribution to this what so ever so we're going to purchase her a nice present (IDEAS, ANYONE?!) instead. All friend and I have to purchase for this trip is a third ticket which we are splitting the cost of. I checked quickly and they seem to be about $500-ish. Really, this trip is costing us $250 each + spending money which will be easily saved. I'm not planning on spending that much money there aside from day trips and yummy food because I'm not overly interested in the shopping there. Yeah, the DVD's are great but I'm a believer of $3 clothes are worth all the $3 you pay. They won't last so I'm going to be spending my hard earned pennies playing with monkeys, tigers, elephant rides and massages. Alcohol too on second thought.
There's going to be a full moon party while we're there too! Soo excited to go to Phi Phi Island where The Beach (think Leo Dicaprio) was filmed.
I'm staying at the Graceland Resort and it's apparently really nice from all things I've heard :)
My friend and I decided we would go to Thailand for our 21st given that they are about 2 months apart and neither of us wanted a party where, essentially we paid for other people to get crunk. So- we decided Thailand. Cheap enough for friends to come if they wanted and for us to afford also as we're headed to Europe in June.
Said friend invited a girl who turns around and says "My boyfriend and I booked a trip to Thailand in October but we've broken up and I'm going to give his ticket away- would you like to come?"
Um, fuck yes we would.
Said couple has already paid for the accommodation and two return tickets and despite us being pushy wanted to contribution to this what so ever so we're going to purchase her a nice present (IDEAS, ANYONE?!) instead. All friend and I have to purchase for this trip is a third ticket which we are splitting the cost of. I checked quickly and they seem to be about $500-ish. Really, this trip is costing us $250 each + spending money which will be easily saved. I'm not planning on spending that much money there aside from day trips and yummy food because I'm not overly interested in the shopping there. Yeah, the DVD's are great but I'm a believer of $3 clothes are worth all the $3 you pay. They won't last so I'm going to be spending my hard earned pennies playing with monkeys, tigers, elephant rides and massages. Alcohol too on second thought.
There's going to be a full moon party while we're there too! Soo excited to go to Phi Phi Island where The Beach (think Leo Dicaprio) was filmed.
I'm staying at the Graceland Resort and it's apparently really nice from all things I've heard :)
Monday, March 7, 2011
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Boost.
We shall call him Blonde Boost Boy.
Thursday, March 3, 2011
Loss of car.
This happened last Sunday actually, I just never got around to posting about it.
I lost my car at the shopping center. Well, actually, I don't think lost is exactly the correct work. I knew where it was, but I was locked outside of the shopping center as I was at a restaurant on the outside, but my car was technically still in center parking. So, I had to walk all the way around the shopping center, and then up roughly 6 ramps which you would usually drive up, all to get to my little broom.
It took almost 40 minutes, had the center been open, it would have taken not even 5.
FML moment.
I lost my car at the shopping center. Well, actually, I don't think lost is exactly the correct work. I knew where it was, but I was locked outside of the shopping center as I was at a restaurant on the outside, but my car was technically still in center parking. So, I had to walk all the way around the shopping center, and then up roughly 6 ramps which you would usually drive up, all to get to my little broom.
It took almost 40 minutes, had the center been open, it would have taken not even 5.
FML moment.
Post surgery entertainment, or lack of.
So, last Tuesday I had my face sliced open. It was supposed to be simple and just a small ish cut on the right side of my lower gums and just remove the plate but, turns out the plate was actually fused with bone over it so now I'm sitting at home, with a fatty fatty swollen face and chunks of my jaw bone missing. I was also supposed to be working again by now but I can't until next Tuesday. Hello bankruptcy.
So far, to keep myself amused the boy has come over and watched some television with me, but the painkillers I'm taking are so strong that I can hardly stay awake for 2 hours in a row. I'm getting better though- trying not to take them as frequently but it just hurts so damn much.
I'm also starting to get some of the feeling back in my face which is slightly uncomfortable because it's all tingly/itchy like when local anesthetic starts to wear off and it's not the most comfortable feeling. Oh well, I'm tough :)
I've watched the entire season four of Ghost Whisperer which honestly was a let down, I had high expectations but it definitely wasn't my favorite. So now that that's all done with I've moved onto season one of How I Met Your Mother. Good quality. I love this show, even if it is making my mouth bleed when I laugh too hard at it. Glee is next, not sure I'll be a fan but I'm running out of new material to watch. I don't remember the last time I had nothing to do with an entire week except watch shows on T.V.
So far, to keep myself amused the boy has come over and watched some television with me, but the painkillers I'm taking are so strong that I can hardly stay awake for 2 hours in a row. I'm getting better though- trying not to take them as frequently but it just hurts so damn much.
I'm also starting to get some of the feeling back in my face which is slightly uncomfortable because it's all tingly/itchy like when local anesthetic starts to wear off and it's not the most comfortable feeling. Oh well, I'm tough :)
I've watched the entire season four of Ghost Whisperer which honestly was a let down, I had high expectations but it definitely wasn't my favorite. So now that that's all done with I've moved onto season one of How I Met Your Mother. Good quality. I love this show, even if it is making my mouth bleed when I laugh too hard at it. Glee is next, not sure I'll be a fan but I'm running out of new material to watch. I don't remember the last time I had nothing to do with an entire week except watch shows on T.V.
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